Sometimes I don’t even know where to begin with writing how I feel, its strange because I am a person who finds writing as an outlet, it helps me just release all the emotions and feelings I have onto a page and to help move forwards.
This last month or so since I was home with my family has been one which has really challenged me and while I have had some lows. I have also had some incredible highs, and I think that I could be reaching a turning point for myself, something I didn’t see coming at all.
I have found my courage and I have working with Arbonne to thank for that, I took a step to be an independent consultant and its something that has really helped me to identify myself and bring me back to the me I know, but its also helped me go beyond that and I felt that ambition and drive that I had lost with everything else that had gone on over the last few years…. finding myself and beliving in myself led me to also get a job which I never imagined I could get. And I can’t wait to start it in a couple of weeks.
I have booked to go on my first solo holiday – I am off to Poland for a few days this September, I honestly can’t wait to do this for myself and to believe and enjoy every moment. Yes its scary and will be so bizarre going it alone and being on a holiday by myself, but I honestly can’t wait to see everything and explore at my own pace. Meeting new people, exeriencing new things and really enjoying the fact that I am so much more comfortable in my own skin and on my own.
I also got my second tattoo – its dedicated to my cats, they helped me through the darkenss and have been the one thing that loved me unconditionally. I would have been lost without them. So I now have a lovely geometric cat on the back of my neck and I love it! Its perfect!
Anyway, I just wanted to share its not all darkness there is light, and just believe that things will get better, fate will find a way and if you believe in yourself then you can do anything, even if you have days which you really don’t want to get out of bed… that’s ok! Be kind to yourself and recognise that those dark days are getting less and less and you have survived 100% of your worst days