I haven't written for so long now, it is one of those things i keep telling myself i should do - because i know i feel better when I do, but at the same time, i just haven't wanted to face my emotions. And then this last couple of days it's all just hit me... Continue Reading →
It's not the pandemic that's causing the lack of sleep tonight... it's the thoughts and wonderings of where I actually go wrong with trusting people. I've always been an open and honest person, totally heart on sleeve and what you see is what you get. I care for people, too much sometimes, I believe people... Continue Reading →
Sometimes I want to write but can't find the words. I can be filled with emotion and need to get it out onto a page - but it just doesn't come out. I can't make enough sense of it all to write it. Thats how I have felt the last month or two... just stuck... Continue Reading →
It's been a while since I have written... I don't even know why it has been, it doesn't seem like that much time has passed - but it has. I've felt a bit lost this week and really realised how much writing helps me to get clarity and realise what I am doing well and... Continue Reading →
Sometimes I don't even know where to begin with writing how I feel, its strange because I am a person who finds writing as an outlet, it helps me just release all the emotions and feelings I have onto a page and to help move forwards. This last month or so since I was home... Continue Reading →
If I was brave enough I would say.... I wish I could share that I wanted to end it all last year, I wish I could explain why, but the truth is I have no idea. I know I have always been the one in the family who’s been driven, who knew where she was... Continue Reading →
It's been a while since I felt I could write a blog post, so much has been happening since my last post, I don't even know where to begin, but today was the first day that I reflected after a day pretty much spent hiding in bed with a book and trash tv on Netflix... Continue Reading →
I've debated a long time about whether to show my face on here. I had thought to myself perhaps I want to be anonymous, that it would allow me more freedom... and it does, but it also attributes to me still hiding who I am. I don't want to hide anymore. I am me, Gems.... Continue Reading →
It all started with a panic attack at yoga of all places on Sunday evening, I hadn't seen it coming but I was able to control it. I was in the middle of pigeon pose and then started to get really uncontrollably hot, then my breathing became tight and I felt like I might burst.... Continue Reading →
I don't really know where this post will go, but I feel like I need to write. I need to just try to give my brain a rest from the over thinking and overworking. to spill the thoughts into a post, and if it reaches someone who is sat here just like me tonight, then... Continue Reading →
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