Another sleepless night…

It's not the pandemic that's causing the lack of sleep tonight... it's the thoughts and wonderings of where I actually go wrong with trusting people. I've always been an open and honest person, totally heart on sleeve and what you see is what you get. I care for people, too much sometimes, I believe people... Continue Reading →

Saturday Musings

It's been a while since I have written... I don't even know why it has been, it doesn't seem like that much time has passed - but it has. I've felt a bit lost this week and really realised how much writing helps me to get clarity and realise what I am doing well and... Continue Reading →

It’s been a while…

Sometimes I don't even know where to begin with writing how I feel, its strange because I am a person who finds writing as an outlet, it helps me just release all the emotions and feelings I have onto a page and to help move forwards. This last month or so since I was home... Continue Reading →

To Mum and Dad…

If I was brave enough I would say.... I wish I could share that I wanted to end it all last year, I wish I could explain why, but the truth is I have no idea. I know I have always been the one in the family who’s been driven, who knew where she was... Continue Reading →

Time to dust off again…

It's been a while since I felt I could write a blog post, so much has been happening since my last post, I don't even know where to begin, but today was the first day that I reflected after a day pretty much spent hiding in bed with a book and trash tv on Netflix... Continue Reading →

This is me

I've debated a long time about whether to show my face on here. I had thought to myself perhaps I want to be anonymous, that it would allow me more freedom... and it does, but it also attributes to me still hiding who I am. I don't want to hide anymore. I am me, Gems.... Continue Reading →

My weekly mantra

It all started with a panic attack at yoga of all places on Sunday evening, I hadn't seen it coming but I was able to control it. I was in the middle of pigeon pose and then started to get really uncontrollably hot, then my breathing became tight and I felt like I might burst.... Continue Reading →

The constant battle

I don't really know where this post will go, but I feel like I need to write. I need to just try to give my brain a rest from the over thinking and overworking. to spill the thoughts into a post, and if it reaches someone who is sat here just like me tonight, then... Continue Reading →

Getting back on track

After a few weeks (maybe couple of months...) I am finally trying to get myself back on track. One of the hardest things about suffering with anxiety and depression is when you hit that wall it is so hard sometimes to pick yourself up. you literally feel like getting out of bed is an effort,... Continue Reading →

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